Wednesday, July 13, 2011

Confidence in not knowing

Prompted by this entry (check out the blog, it's totally ALWAYS sweet).

The older we get, the more certain we get about who we are and what our purpose is. For me, a lot of it is still unknown, but as I make my way down my own path, I have begun to realize that there are indeed some inevitable truths that I know for sure. On your own blog, write a post that talks about "the one thing you know for sure."

This may be cheating to say so, but the one thing I know for sure is that I don't know for sure. My life has been in a state of upheaval for almost ten years now. Almost ten years ago was when I began to recognize myself as depressed. Since then, I have struggled to find balance in my life, in all aspects. Currently, I am tackling my body image and health. I am trying to eat healthier. I am attempting to cut out carbs this week, but have found myself experiencing "carb flu", which leaves me feeling incredibly unfocused, worn out by early afternoon, and foggy. It's not a pleasant feeling, but my acid reflux symptoms have seriously diminished and the bloated feeling I've had has largely gone away.

I didn't know for sure that cutting back on grains would help with this. I didn't know for sure if Mr. Boyfriend and I would still be together by now (a year and a half in). I didn't know for sure if I was going to make it through to graduation last year, but I did. I try to take confidence in not knowing, now, because it allows for change. Change is scary for someone like me. Sometimes I love it, sometimes I hate it. I am having a very hard time changing my eating habits and keep attributing it to not having time, energy or space to really prepare meals. I don't know for sure if that will change when we find an apartment, but that's okay. It can go either way, and either way I'll find a way for it to work. Either way, I survive.

Monday, July 11, 2011

Scooter Safety

Whether you are the one on the scooter/moped or in a car and dealing with mopeds around you, here are some thoughts from a scooter-rider on how to be safe.

-Follow the rules of the road. That means no passing when there's a double yellow, no matter how slow the scooter is going. If you are caught, YOU will be ticketed. The speed limit is a LIMIT, meaning scooters do not have to go that speed, just close to it, when possible. If your scooter is super slow and you can't stay within a reasonable range of the speed limit, maybe you should not be driving it on that road and halting the flow of traffic.
-Be courteous. A lot of people tell me that scooter riders are jerks and cut people off. Being aggressive or defensive is personal preference, but I find it best to stake your claim and be cautious. I don't get over for people to pass (because it's not legal for them to pass anyway) because I'm going 27mph in a 30mph zone. Deal with it, car, it's rush hour anyway. I don't cut people off because that's dangerous in many ways and I can't accelerate fast. Be aware of your vehicle's limitations.
-Don't generalize. SOME people can be jerks, but not all are. So it follows that not all people in cars will honk at you, try to pass you, or scooter riders will not hog the road because they're mean. They're just looking out for themselves. They're very exposed, after all. If you're stuck behind a scooter that just will not get up to speed, deal with it or find a different route to get past them, but don't compromise their safety for your impatience.
-BE SAFE, MORON. So many scooter-riders (and motorcyclists, for that matter) don't' wear proper safety gear when riding. Legally, you only need a DOT rated helmet, but gloves, long pants, a jacket (leather is good for skidding, armor is good for impact), and covered shoes (boots!) are recommended. I wear sneakers, jeans, and a light leather jacket most days, since I wear the sneakers and jeans to work anyway, and the jacket is light enough that I get a nice airflow as I'm riding in the heat, but would at least protect me from abrasions if I got into an accident. I have a thicker leather jacket that I'll wear when the weather cools. I am still without rain gear, but generally it's recommended you wear your normal riding gear underneath it so you are protected from the elements and accidents.

Commons misconceptions, because I'm tired of explaining.

Q: Scooter? Moped? Motorcycle?
A: A motorized vehicle with two wheels built to carry one or two passengers on main roadways with an automatic or 1-stage transmission is a moped/scooter. As far as I'm concerned, the terms are interchangeable. A motorcycle has a manual transmission. Legally, anything with a motor under 50cc (that's the size) is a moped (in MA anyway) and anything over that must be classified as a motorcycle. That requires a motorcycle license to ride, even if it is, by design, a scooter.

Q: What do I need to ride it, license-wise?
A: In MA, you need only a license of ANY kind to ride a scooter. It can be a regular license or class M license. I only have a regular license right now, but intend on getting class M added when I can spare the cash for courses.

Q: And registration?
A: A moped in MA can be registered one of two ways. One is to get a moped sticker instead of a plate, that gets renewed every 2 years. You can ride in bike lanes, park on sidewalks, but you CANNOT exceed 30mph. You cannot ride on roads where the speed limit is over 45mph. You do not have to have insurance, but obviously it's recommended. You can also register as a limited use vehicle, which makes you like any other vehicle on the road in regards to laws for lanes, except that you still cannot ride on roads where the speed limit is over 45 mph. You cannot exceed 40mph. In fact, your vehicle is not supposed to be CAPABLE of exceeding 40mph. You are asked the maximum possible speed upon registration (I very honestly answered "about 30"). You MUST insure a LUV in MA. I could only find a couple of companies in MA that would insure a moped and had to go with Progressive. It was $187 for the year up front (I've had my license for 5 years with no accidents).

Tuesday, July 05, 2011

Resolutions - revisited

I decided to revisit my resolutions for 2011 and discovered that I'm actually doing pretty well!

-Start exercising regularly: I'm swimming at the local gym, though not as regularly as I'd like. It's a start at least. I have completely slacked off with keeping track of all this though, and would really like to get back to jotting down how many laps I do every session, for how long etc.
-Keep up with driving practice: I drove to work every day for at least the first month at my job, I think. Then I got my scooter, so I've been riding that, but I did quite well. And then this past weekend, I drove over 200 miles on the highway! Cruise control is love. I'm quite proud of myself for these accomplishments. I know that I still need practice, but at this point, that will come as I continue driving.
-Move out: yeeaahhh not any closer with this than I was before. I have the money, but we're not sure if our potential roommate is really in on this venture, and we can't find anything in an area/price range that suits us that doesn't get snatched off the market immediately.
-Keep improving my moods etc.: I'm still going to therapy, still taking Lexapro, still doing okay. Overall, I think I'm doing well here.

And the things I just kind of wanted:
-I got a laptop when the Sony store closed, woooo!
-I have the money for the tattoo, and a better idea of what I want, but just don't feel like bothering to get it right now.
-My mom was shocked that I *wouldn't* take my cat when I move out. So I guess if we can find a cat friendly apartment, Fae will come with us!

I feel like I should add some more resolutions/goals for the year, since I'm knocking these out pretty well. Hmmm...