There’s always plenty to say, but it doesn’t always come out easily. I just took a quick glance at some of my goals for the year, and I’m doing pretty well on some fronts.
-I’ve been practicing driving! I’ve taken myself to the bank, the grocery store, and my parents’ house on separate trips recently. My confidence behind the wheel is growing, slowly but surely, but I still feel like I can’t see everything that is going on and I have no idea where things are around me. I stop so I can still see the rear wheels of the car in front of me (like we were taught) and I park about a foot from the curb (just because I can’t tell where it is!).
-When I was working, I brought lunch to work pretty much every day! PB&J and yogurt is not much, but it was enough to get me through till dinner, and it was inexpensive.
-Slowly but surely we are coming up with new things to make for dinner (but we still order out fairly frequently, it’s a good fallback plan anyway).
-I’ve been writing in my written journal a lot with my new fountain pen. I write about everything. Sometimes it’s just soothing to physically write, not just because I’m getting my thoughts out, but because the motion is kind of mind-numbing. I had a lot of “deep thoughts” on the flights to and from Seattle, but unfortunately could not get to my journal. I used to write a lot on flights (when my family would visit other family in Illinois or we’d fly to Maryland or Florida). Something about being up in the sky just makes me feel verbose and poetic.
-I am still going to therapy, though not frequently because my new doctor is not available all that often, and I am back to trying out Lexapro. So far this dose seems really good. I am not overly tired from it, and it takes the edge off my anxiety so that I feel like I can function.
I’ve been failing pretty hardcore on other fronts though. I am still not exercising (still want to swim, but now I have to be a lot more conservative financially so it’s not really an option). I have not really moved out yet, but that will have to wait until my funds can support the move.
Holcomb and I went to Seattle this past week for 4 days. We had a blast. We didn’t see everything I’d hoped to, but we did a lot of things that we hadn’t planned on initially and were still fun. The best part was probably the photos here in the blog, the Rocky Mountain Chocolate Factory. I just like how the photos came out. I didn’t get a lot of other ones on the trip that I’m proud of, probably partially due to the fact that I’m not at all used to my new camera yet. I do love it, though.
We met up with a new friend that we met on World of Warcraft for drinks. She was not creepy and very nice, and we had a fun time with her. I was pretty nervous the whole time. I am not good at talking in bars (I have pretty bad volume control as it is, and it gets worse when I drink). I don’t hear people all that well, so it’s even harder in loud settings, which makes me nervous when it’s new people and they don’t know me and expect me to ask what they’re saying a lot. I think it was fine though. People tell me that I come across pretty friendly even when I’m nervous, so I guess that’s good!