Alright, letting some frustration bleed over here.
I have to catch up in Photography. There are going to be more than a few ruined rolls of film as I sort out what the fuck I'm doing again. I can't get the light right, I don't know if I'm overdeveloping or underdeveloping because I can't remember what each looks like on the negatives. I can't look at negatives and tell if they're good or not. Maybe I couldn't before. It seemed so intuitive then. Maybe my focus has changed.
I'm going to buy the Lomography Fisheye toy camera. Hopefully that, with its simple fixed focus and built in flash, will bring a bit of love back to photography. I'm even hating on my digital camera right now. The internal memory being slow, I'm used to that now, but DAMN why does it distort when you take pictures too close? I guess it's kind of a wide angle lens? Hell if I know. I need a reference book for all this terminology, I just can't remember anything. I just want a nice little self-portrait goddammit!
What I'd really like to photograph this semester is myself and David. Not necessarily together, but that would be nice too. First thing is getting my negatives to look a hell of a lot better, get a better sense of lighting and the settings on my camera again. Then, figure out how to DIY a bit of lighting so I don't have to go down to Traina Center for an "organized" shoot. I want to capture David's discontent with his status as a soldier in expressive portraits, and I want to examine what it means to be photogenic in myself. Sounds fun, yes? NOT IF I CAN'T PHOTOGRAPH MYSELF FOR CRAP. The negatives I developed today looked terrible, but of course, I can't be sure until I go to the darkroom because I can't look at those damn shadows properly.