Okay so maybe not on the cryptic relationship-related rant.
Today I was listening to music on my Creative Zen (they have their flaws, but they are EXCELLENT for a non-Apple mp3 player; pricey, yes, but very good) and something came on that threw me into major nostalgia mode. It's so strange that something as simple as a song (okay songs aren't necessarily a simple so that's stupid to say) could throw my brain into a totally different feeling, like I'm going into the past, back to when my brain thought and felt differently, almost making me feel like I'm physically elsewhere. If I had less of a grip on reality now, I probably would have physically stumbled when that happened. It threw me back to a time when I was very depressed, but the feeling I got was very peaceful, like a bit of my mind that was very collected from back then, that I forget about now and sometimes feel like I've lost.
You wouldn't expect something so deep from Fall Out Boy, but I have a secret love for them. People write them off too quickly, I think. I wonder if they've had a new album since I stopped listening. That feeling continued as I kept listening to the album. I kept getting the sense that I'd start seeing things that I'd done in the past, past events, but they didn't come. Just the feeling.
Please note: the things I talk about in this blog are not necessarily things I want to talk about in person. Like this entry. It's not something I can really verbalize in person, and that's why I write here. Reviews of stuff, obviously, are open topics for discussion, but anything more personal, please don't bring it up unless it's online.
Gifts for self that I should get:
-new computer speakers
-Dresden Dolls companion book (so I can have non-classical piano sheet music to maybe mess around with)
-Sigg water bottle (because I dislike Nalgenes!)