Friday, June 19, 2009

dance, dance

Okay so maybe not on the cryptic relationship-related rant.

Today I was listening to music on my Creative Zen (they have their flaws, but they are EXCELLENT for a non-Apple mp3 player; pricey, yes, but very good) and something came on that threw me into major nostalgia mode.  It's so strange that something as simple as a song (okay songs aren't necessarily a simple so that's stupid to say) could throw my brain into a totally different feeling, like I'm going into the past, back to when my brain thought and felt differently, almost making me feel like I'm physically elsewhere.  If I had less of a grip on reality now, I probably would have physically stumbled when that happened.  It threw me back to a time when I was very depressed, but the feeling I got was very peaceful, like a bit of my mind that was very collected from back then, that I forget about now and sometimes feel like I've lost.

You wouldn't expect something so deep from Fall Out Boy, but I have a secret love for them.  People write them off too quickly, I think.  I wonder if they've had a new album since I stopped listening.  That feeling continued as I kept listening to the album.  I kept getting the sense that I'd start seeing things that I'd done in the past, past events, but they didn't come.  Just the feeling.

Please note: the things I talk about in this blog are not necessarily things I want to talk about in person.  Like this entry.  It's not something I can really verbalize in person, and that's why I write here.  Reviews of stuff, obviously, are open topics for discussion, but anything more personal, please don't bring it up unless it's online.

Gifts for self that I should get:

-new computer speakers

-Dresden Dolls companion book (so I can have non-classical piano sheet music to maybe mess around with)

-Sigg water bottle (because I dislike Nalgenes!)

Monday, June 15, 2009

never worry about the future 'cause I'm a cat

Mysterious ranting coming soon.

I reformatted two computers this weekend: my old laptop Pete, the Inspiron 5150, and my custom desktop Rex.  Pete is performing quite nicely now...until he overheats and then everything slows down to a crawl again.  Nothing can be done about that, it's just a crappy model.  The battery had recalls, people got replacement HDs because they died from the overheating etc.  My hard drive died once in it, but we rescued mostly everything (lost one picture folder) via Linux.  Rex is back to the speedy beast he was two years ago, and I am very happy about that.  35 processes right now, with pretty much everything I want installed, minus games.  I'll do that sometime this week probably, I could use some Fallout 3.  Oooo and I found a utility that watches voltages and temperatures on my motherboard!  I didn't know I could do that, and now I just have to figure out how to get it to display the CPU usage and I'm set.

We got a new insurance (everyone made it through the week without alive, but not healthy) and I don't know how much dental it covers, but apparently there's no vision plan.  I am praying that I will not have to repeat the gum grafting I had in 7th grade at some point, but I have some incredibly low gumlines.  Plus side of new insurance: cheaper copay!